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WIN THE BATTLE, BUT LOSE THE WAR

Camilla Angolini

​​Your voice is loud
be quiet
I feel nauseous
Can you be quiet?
You are choking me
I dare you, talk back
we can’t both win
just let go
let me drown you in a deep, black void
where nothing matters
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you don’t matter
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nothing can be real in the dark
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but if I let you win
if I let go
it is over for the both of us
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why do you keep my head underwater
when you know I can’t breath?
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the intrusive thought
are you satisfied now?
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You made me little, fragile, numb
why do I allow it…
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too weak, pathetic
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when you see yourself in the mirror
how can you stand that look?
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Can’t do anything right
it’s not gonna be good enough
you’ll never finish what you started
and if you do
it won’t be worthy
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I can hear you
but I don’t know where the sound is coming from
Why can I hear you?
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If I find the reason and explain it to you
would you then be quiet?

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